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Friday, February 21, 2014

The Unicorn


Tonight my little baby girl Zoe was going to her very first Father~Daughter dance. Oh how she couldn't wait for this night. Her dad had a game to coach so he wasn't able to take her, but She found a willing suitor who not only accompanied her to the dance, but bought her a new dress and shoes for the evening.  Her dad sent her off with a matching bow and I let her borrow a very special necklace, the unicorn. It matched her green dress perfectly and acentuated her eyes. Oh how she sparkled. I remember that unicorn necklace wrapped around my mother's neck. She used to wear it often and I always admired it as a little girl. And as I put it on her tonight my eyes weld up in tears as I thought of my mom. Oh if she was well she'd be here with me right now helping Zoe get ready for her night out. Oh if only...as my sister came over to make it an even more special night she too recognized the necklace and teared up. Tonight may little girl went to the ball with my prince long ago and my hero, my mom. We all saw Stella tonight through our little girl with a big name meaning life. Zoe, bringing life to all of us, even mom.




Wednesday, February 5, 2014

Resilient

So as you can see I got a full time job this year (because I never post anymore!) and it totally kicked my butt! Our family went through a complete transformation in August, and although I worried how my children would react to this change, I am continually impressed with the ability of my family to rise to the occasion! Finally, after 7 months my life is working, I am surviving and my children continue to amaze me. I never thought this would all work out and we would be able to function as early as we do. My fears overcame me at the beginning of this adventure of going back to work full time. Doubts of being a good mother filled my head. And I felt so badly for my babies having to wake up at 5:45am every day so I could make it to Campus Club by 7:00 and to my school by 7:30. But you know what, every morning there my babies are getting up, slowly but surely, getting dressed, eating, and ready for their day. They amaze me...how do these little bodies just adjust to life? They will be those students in college that can't sleep in and schedule all their classes before 10:00! 7 months and I finally got it down. Groceries, meals, lunches, gymnastics, basketball, soccer, wrestling, ballet, jazz, treats to school for birthdays, chef of the week, 7 dozen cookies for Christmas Decorating class party, teacher gifts, cleaning house, organizing school memory binders times 4, laundry, working out, all of this-finally gelling. Finally working...ahhh it's been a wild ride and I am so thankful for being able to keep up. The hubs and the kids, amaze this mama daily, and I wouldn't be able to do any of it without them!