Look at this picture of Stella. Look at her raw, pure, joy over finally having a baby to call her own. After ten years of trying, crying, and praying for her own little baby to love, God blessed her with this bundle of joy called Sophie. Here, on a 35mm camera which took the old fashioned film, a moment of intoxicating bliss was captured and forever missed. You can rob me of my money, my car, and my house, even my identity, but to rob me of myself is something so abominable. Mom, oh how I wish you could be celebrating with us today your bundle of joy. You have been robbed of something so precious that we all wish we could give back to you. Today, almost 38 years ago, we are intoxicated with this bliss you had in this moment as we celebrate this lady you have raised to be so amazing. I love you mom...and I hope you feel it when I hug you, when I lay on you and hold your fragile body frame. This is how I will forever hold you in my heart, even though we don't get to see it on your face anymore. Happy Birthday Sissy...mom would have taken you out to La Boulangerie today and spoiled you with anything your heart desired.
Friday, August 30, 2013
Tuesday, August 20, 2013
Summer...has come and gone with these four smiling faces. And though I wish I could say they were all smiles all summer like the ones captured in this photo, I would be lying! There were moments of pure joy, no doubt, but many moments when school couldn't come quicker! And as a mom who got to practically stay home with her babies the past 7 years, this mama had to go back to work this year. So when a job came around, like it or not, it was mine. So summer to me ended much quicker than I would've liked. So reminiscing on these crazy, lazy, long summer afternoons is actually quite enjoyable right now. Ah, the long lazy days, with children fighting with each other, never enough food in the kitchen, clothes scattered all over the patio from endless 24/7 swimming, and the endless amounts of loads filled with towels...why do I long for those days right now? One could only say because those days sound a lot better than up and at 5:30, get yourself dressed professionally, get four kids dressed, fed, back packs packed, lunches packed, campus club drop off at 7:00am, work 7:30-3:30 across town, schedule the hubs to pick up kids at 3:15, car pool to gymnastics at 4:00, dance for another at 4:30, soccer for one at 6:00 and another at 7:00, and don't forget you have your own school back to school that same night! Yes...it's true! I did that, do that, will continue to do that for the next 180 school days, plus the weekend schedules of out of town gymnastics meets, and soccer games for three and cross country-don't forget the added school sport added to every 4th grader's lifetime of events! Is anyone gasping for air? Or applauding? Or nodding their heads in agreement of their lives heading in the same direction!!! And yes, we the fabulous mothers of 2013 have signed up FOR. IT. ALL. We would have it no other way...at least in Clovis Unified, there is no other option! Good luck to all my mamas out there with full time jobs outside of their house, their CEO roles in their families, and the many lives they have to be in charge of beyond their own! And cheers to hands on dads...I could not, would not, do this alone!!!! Go 2013-2014 school year!