Saturday, August 31, 2013


Look at this picture of Stella. Look at her raw, pure, joy over finally having a baby to call her own. After ten years of trying, crying, and praying for her own little baby to love, God blessed her with this bundle of joy called Sophie. Here, on a 35mm camera which took the old fashioned film, a moment of intoxicating bliss was captured and forever missed. You can rob me of my money, my car, and my house, even my identity, but to rob me of myself is something so abominable. Mom, oh how I wish you could be celebrating with us today your bundle of joy. You have been robbed of something so precious that we all wish we could give back to you. Today, almost 38 years ago, we are intoxicated with this bliss you had in this moment as we celebrate this lady you have raised to be so amazing. I love you mom...and I hope you feel it when I hug you, when I lay on you and hold your fragile body frame. This is how I will forever hold you in my heart, even though we don't get to see it on your face anymore.  Happy Birthday would have taken you out to La Boulangerie today and spoiled you with anything your heart desired.

Friday, August 30, 2013


 Sophie. The name alone brings lots of smiles to most everyone in Fresno and beyond to the other side of the world. Many people love this girl and many more call her friend. Who else has a dinner to honor her 25 closest friends every year or knows the majority of people in every restaurant in town. This girl has come into our lives and has made us better people with her presence alone. Everyone who crosses her path feels special and loved.  The ladies at the GB3 gym call her friend. The cashier at the Starbucks on Willow call her by name. Random people will stop her and say thanks for being so kind to me and my child at school yesterday. This is the type of person my sissy is...kind, thoughtful, and always going out of her way for the people she loves. And tomorrow on her birthday, I am honored to call her my sister. Not only is she my best friend, but she is the one person in my life who helps me survive this journey we call life. If mom was healthy, she would be singing her praise. What a gem our family was blessed with so many years ago (won't divulge exact years-it is her day). God chose us to be her family because He knew I needed a sissy. Some days I cannot even think with out her you sissy and all you tell me to do! I really do listen to every word you say! Happy Birthday mean the world to me! Enjoy your day...I can't wait to spoil you tomorrow!

Tuesday, August 20, 2013


Summer...has come and gone with these four smiling faces. And though I wish I could say they were all smiles all summer like the ones captured in this photo, I would be lying! There were moments of pure joy, no doubt, but many moments when school couldn't come quicker! And as a mom who got to practically stay home with her babies the past 7 years, this mama had to go back to work this year. So when a job came around, like it or not, it was mine. So summer to me ended much quicker than I would've liked. So reminiscing on these crazy, lazy, long summer afternoons is actually quite enjoyable right now. Ah, the long lazy days, with children fighting with each other, never enough food in the kitchen, clothes scattered all over the patio from endless 24/7 swimming, and the endless amounts of loads filled with towels...why do I long for those days right now?  One could only say because those days sound a lot better than up and at 5:30, get yourself dressed professionally, get four kids dressed, fed, back packs packed, lunches packed, campus club drop off at 7:00am, work 7:30-3:30 across town, schedule the hubs to pick up kids at 3:15, car pool to gymnastics at 4:00, dance for another at 4:30, soccer for one at 6:00 and another at 7:00, and don't forget you have your own school back to school that same night!'s true! I did that, do that, will continue to do that for the next 180 school days, plus the weekend schedules of out of town gymnastics meets, and soccer games for three and cross country-don't forget the added school sport added to every 4th grader's lifetime of events! Is anyone gasping for air? Or applauding? Or nodding their heads in agreement of their lives heading in the same direction!!! And yes, we the fabulous mothers of 2013 have signed up FOR. IT. ALL. We would have it no other least in Clovis Unified, there is no other option! Good luck to all my mamas out there with full time jobs outside of their house, their CEO roles in their families, and the many lives they have to be in charge of beyond their own! And cheers to hands on dads...I could not, would not, do this alone!!!! Go 2013-2014 school year!